Happy New Year
I don’t believe in making resolutions, I never have. I sometimes try but it just feels like I’m setting myself up to fail. I understand why other people do them, and if doing it works for you that’s great. I don’t agree with the people who say 1st of Jan is just another day and it doesn’t matter that the year has changed from 2015 to 2016. I think the new year does matter; it is a good time to look to the future and think about our hopes and dreams for the coming year, not resolutions.
As I said in my last Wicked Wednesday post, I’ve had a pretty good 2015. There have been some bad times/days but over all I really think it was a better year than I’ve had for a long time. I even managed to enjoy my Christmas and New Year, granted I worked on both days (and on NYE) because I wanted things for the new website to be ready but I still enjoyed myself for the most part. I haven’t had a really good Christmas since my dad died but felt like this year I managed it.
However, I want next year to be even better. And I am going to make it better. So here are my not resolutions; my hopes/thoughts/plans for the coming year.
- Halfway through November I joined a gym (a friend made it possible by buying me trainers and generally being supportive), I’d forgotten how much I actually enjoy going. I really want to get fitter. I want to be able to run for a bus, to walk up a hill, etc. I picked a great gym, and I’ve also been doing some classes (yoga, boxercise, and body attack), and I started swimming. I’m loving it all so much. And I want to keep going and challenging myself.
*Am also hoping that as my core strength (and balance) improve I can learn to walk in my heels.
- I started my second website (thanks to some help from @riboe_kent and some gorgeous design work from Oleander Plume). It’s a book, film, game, etc review site and I am very excited to see it grow over the next year. As I expand my brand as Cheryl Kaye. If you’d like to check it out you can find it at Popcorn and Paperbacks.
- I realised that all I want to do is write for a living, it’s all I ever wanted to do. After years of being told it was something to do as a hobby or when I retire, I finally realised that I would never be happy doing anything else, and life is too short to not be happy in your work. So I am going all out to make my writing my career. Yes, it will be hard work, and holidays will have to be made up for at other times but it also means I am doing what I love. And working on my terms. I can’t think of anything better than that.
- I want to meet more people, and especially to find people locally who I can explore my kinky side with. I love the guys I currently have………connections with, and I don’t plan to stop seeing them. I just want to expand my circle a bit more. I have a high sex drive and lately although I’ve had some really good sex, I haven’t had it enough. This year that is going to change…..or at the very least I am going to try to put myself out there.
- this one goes hand in hand with the previous one. I want to explore my domme side. I know I am more dominant than I am submissive…….I’m a switch but my domme leaning are definitely stronger. And I really want the opportunity to explore that. I’m still not sure I can do financial domination, although gifts and tributes are acceptable. But I really want to find a submissive who I can use as my guinea pig while I work out exactly what I like as a domme.
- I’d also love to be able to get my own place to live. Don’t get me wrong for the most part I love my house-mates and I do feel I have been very fortunate but I want my own space that is bigger than the bedroom I am in now. I want to be able to keep food in kitchen cupboards (as opposed to the spare bit of my wardrobe), and to have my baking stuff where I can actually use it. I don’t think this will happen this year, but it is on the list.
- I’d really like to be able to come off the anti-depressant medication I am on. I think I am almost ready to start reducing my dose. I really want to have stopped by the end of the year.
- I want to read one new book a week; any length, any genre. As long as I haven’t read it before. I have at least 25 books in my to read pile so that should keep me going for a while. I am sure I also have books on my kindle that I haven’t read. And I still have Christmas Amazon vouchers to use up.
- I am going to quit worrying so much about the ‘right’ foods, and just enjoy the things I want to eat. I will exercise moderation. And if I eat something I used to think of as ‘bad’ I am not going to feel guilty. As long as I ate it mindfully, and enjoyed it. I am doing this in an attempt to stop shovelling food in without thinking about it. I need to relearn my body’s signals, and listen when it tells me it is full.
- Drink more water. This is an easy one but still important. I drink loads on gym days, but on weekends I tend to get busy and forget. I am hoping using my soda stream will help with that (I don’t use the soda stream mixes, I just make the water fizzy and add it to some squash).
- I am going to make more of an effort with my friends, especially the ones I have almost lost touch with. My best friends are scattered about the country (two in Bradford, one in Liverpool, one in Derbyshire). I need to make the effort to keep in touch with them more often. And I want to be better at reaching out to my newer friends too. Sometimes I think of messaging people but then I start to worry that I am being a nuisance, so I wait for them to message when it’s convenient to them. Then I worry that they don’t like me because they haven’t messaged. This is a ridiculous way to think about friendship and I need to stop. If I am thinking of a friend I need to send them a message, even if it is only, “I was thinking of you and thought I’d say hi”.
- I need to continue working on getting rid of clutter. I can keep my books, and some of my other things (like baking stuff, and craft box) but the general clutter needs to go. My bed is one of those storage ones that lift up. The space under it is full of junk, most of which I never use. I need to go through it and either ebay or charity shop stuff……same with the boxes in the garage.
- To get a decent camera and start taking photos again. I loved doing photography, and I miss taking pictures. I want to get back into it, and maybe to start doing portraits, for people within the BDSM and kink community, as well as doing more self portraits (ones that show more than my tits).
- To be better with money, and stop buying people stuff ‘just because’. They don’t need it. They like me anyway I do not need to buy them crap. I want to be in a position to clear my outstanding debts and save up so I can travel. I’m a freelance writer, theoretically I can work from anywhere. I have no kids, or other ties, so I have the freedom to travel. (This is another reason for getting rid of clutter. Storage is expensive). I just need to sort out my money so I can make it happen.
I could go on but think I’d better stop there before I bore you all to tears.